The Flag Floating

 

“I feel as if I’m sitting lonely on the very top of a mountain, enveloped by quietness and there is nobody in sight. Loneliness of this kind seems enough to suffocate a human being.”

 

“Why don’t you call the people at the foot of the mountain and describe for them the wonders you can see up there.”

 

The above conversation was made between I and a chap of mine who has an interest in Buddhism. What he said was insightful and enlightened me to a sub-consciousness related article (approximately 5000 Chinese characters in all) in later 1996. At that time, I did not have the nerve to get across my idea which is more similar to an unmatched mountain of gold or silver…and of too high value to be discussed with others. Meanwhile, I was aware that "the people at the foot of the mountain" may not comprehend what I have seen at its top unless a thesis paper gets published in an international recognized psychology magazine. However, I was then intimidated by the Chinese conventional wisdom of “the bird which takes the lead gets shot first” and didn't want to be the leading bird. Instead, I wished a person would emerge, who published a thesis paper reflecting an idea similar to mine and took the honor and publicity, whereas I retired away from this complex world, leveraging my findings on my own. But I realized that this is a selfish and cowardly thought. What changed me later is my searching for true love.

 

The person, who can see through personality self-realization and the integration of psychology, may also suffer an overwhelming setback in pursuing true love. I am the vivid example. The first two courting experiences were ended in failure, because I was then addicted to the self-finding in the psychology and philosophy, on which I based my courtship, and as a result rejected crucially by them. A lady dismissed what I believe as “NONSENSE”, the other dismissed it as “UNREALISTIC”. (I am really confused about who is fool? Me or them?) After two disappointed love searching experiences, one of my friends introduced me a decent lady from Dandong City, Liaoning Province. In the Spring Festival of 1999, I went by train from Guangzhou to Dandong in the northern China to meet her, and I got along with her family for three days. In discussion with her about my future career, she asked me whether my article could turn into cash. This was a normal question, but for me, difficult to give an answer. I had foreseen that our paths went in parallel and the forced union would lead nowhere. I felt melancholy in the train back to Guangzhou with the round trip reaching 6000km long. In the early 2000, when watching a pair-making program broadcast by Hunan STV, I was attracted by a specially invited guest of honor who was an editor with Wuhan Zhiyin Magazine Publisher. Later, I succeeded in getting in touch with her and rode on a train to Wuhan in the National Day of 2000 for just meeting her. Out of my expectation, the Wuhaner welcomed me with a dinner and afterwards vanished off the face of the earth. In the April 2001, I decided to leave for Lijiang, Yunan Province, to meet a female Naxi tourist guide I got acquainted with before. At that time, I stayed in Lijiang more than one month, but found disappointedly that she was not my longed-for.

 

Finally I realized that I had to dispense with my selfish and cowardly disposition of restricting the fruits to myself before the true love could be found. But I’ve been determined that the profession came first rather than affection. What was my career? What did I want? A person with personality self-realization. This was of too much value that even putting forward the theory required the braveness that was beyond predecessors, not to speak of making it a reality. However, I must summon up my courage to let the “people at the foot of the mountain” know what I saw at the top, and if not, I would be kept far away from my love. So I must do something. On Jul. 28^th, 2002, I made a lonely heart advertisement in Dalian Peninsula Morningpost, which took up space of whole two pages, one containing my photochrome and the other my article concerning sub-consciousness. I spent half of following year in Dalian, and during this period, with my confidence boosted by the ad., I got my first ever article published on www.ssreader.com entitled ‘Founding Dialectical Materialism Psychology’ and began to take all inquiries from the public. In the follow-up, the article was refined continuously and finally took shape as a thesis paper. In Aug., 2004, I carried my paper to the 28th International Congress of Psychology, and the paper’s title was replaced by ‘Make Personality Self-realization Be Part of Our Lives’. In the June and July 2005, my paper passed blind reviews (names of the author, tutor and reviewer are kept in secrect), and its English version got published in INSAN Media Psikologi, a Psychology specialized magazine. It came out at last to the public.

 

My parents objected my partner-seeking advertisement. Even though the advertisement had been covered with dust, whenever I compared the pricing of vegetables and fruits in supermarkets at home, my mom would murmur, “a hundred thousand has been thrown. Do you care about several cents?” I only responded to my mom’s comments with a laugh, because they knew nothing about the importance of my work and I could not make it understood by them. When I received the mail which contained the magazine with my published paper, I felt even a little nervous. After 24 hours, I eventually open the mail. In the Editor's Comment, the chief editor put my paper in spotlight and gave it a high score. I thought the way that INSAN Media Psikologi dealt with my work showed that they had recognized and appreciated the value underlying my work. I thank them for that. In fact, I felt a little more mature after issuing a notice for spouse, which seemed to have relieved a heavy burden of my heart. I think I am the only one, even in the whole world, who can only release his paper by the help of a spouse-seeking advertisement.

 

My paper released in the Indonesian magazine was entitled ‘Self-actualization Personality Become Part of Our Lives’, while it was entitled ‘Founding Dialectical Materialism Psychology’ when receiving inquiries. Why does the same work have two titles? First, the philosophical foundation of my paper is dialectical materialism. During the digestion of philosophy, I was bound to turn insane as Nietzsche if I did not have a solid philosophical foundation. Second, my paper is to promote personality self-realization, which is compliant with the theory of “highly intelligent, constructive and creative human beings” put forward by the great philosopher Marx. Communism is far away belief for communists, but it is a future reality as far as I’m concerned. In my opinion, it is better to characterize the Communist society as a society of resources sharing. However, such a society can only be built with adequate and necessary conditions arising, which I think are personality self-realization. The adequate condition may be that the people with self-realized personality possess a certain amount of wealth, e.g., they shall be made billionaires. The real sharing of resources shall only occur among the people with self-realized personality. Do you know what the psychological explanation of greediness is? The insecure senses locked deep inside incurred by one’s sufferings. It is the insecure senses that fuel the endless possessions and plundering. Is it possible that the people with their greedy nature washed off can be awarded the access to the house of gods, like the Christians?

 

In ancient times of China, there were many times that many small countries joined together and formed a united power and had a new king. In the history of psychology, there were factions which resemble the divided territories in ancient China. Is it likely that a king of psychology would reign should all the factions be united? One of my friends has said that I can be awarded Nobel Prize if I achieve personality self-realization. What is the use of psychology king? What differences does a Nobel Prize make? With the fetters broken, the freedom in human's soul and thinking outvalue them.

 

Flags of personality self-realization are floating in the air. 21^st century is destined to be a great century. And if the philosophers and psychologists full of wisdom can be turned into billionaires in this century, in addition to the businessmen showing off their wealth, it will be one of the milestones in the cultural evolution in human society.

 

At last, I conclude that the success of developing average personality into the level of self-realization requires building of a psychological research center. The center can be called “Dialectical Materialism Psychology Research Centre” or “Psychological Integration Research Centre” or “Personality Self-realization Research Centre”. The name can be selected to cater to the public.